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Abiogenesis: a son will appear between those legs as meat left in the sun turns to maggots. A son will peer out from between those legs, a son who is all eye. A blink, a shudder of the legs. They fiddle together in silence. The son wants to cry. His lacrimal lake already full but crying implies a face. The son knows this, knows it in the way bivalves know food; not in the way the mother knows bivalves as food, as aphrodisiacs. She rubs the eye as she brings a bivalve to another orifice she can’t see but knows is there. She knew it before the mirror confirmed its absence. An absence to slide bivalves down. The son, being rubbed, is negative light as rods and cones turn tactile. In the light there are shapes the son knows. He tears as pulses create the depths across which they travel. The son wants the shapes. The mother thinks back to lying on her back on a hillside covered in non-descript flowers. How the clouds inevitably became extant: sperm whales, their geysers too obvious. How naïve, she thinks, and drops another bivalve into the hole she can’t see to celebrate her lost ingenuity. She can’t see any of her holes. She cannot see the son. He cannot see her either, though her legs brace his field of vision. She stops rubbing for a moment, and the son opens to the world again; a subconjunctival hemorrhage lazily forming around his iris. What does he see, the mother wonders wrong-headedly. Eyes don’t see. Minds see. The raw eggs arrive, and she goes back to rubbing, careful not to gouge the son in some imitation of an obvious act of creation. She sucks the eggs through pinpricks, sucking until the surface gives, and the yolk gushes like dirty sunlight into her. All the while a phenakistoscope persists along the surface retaining the son’s aqueous fluid. The shapes more real to him than the shapes made by refracted light on photoreceptive cells in a manner consistent with their proper design.