if what can change then everything can change
080e001>Is that it?080e001>
Like on Seinfeld when the dentist is Jewish for the jokes…
080e002>You tried the rugalach at the bakery by my house?
That place is serious.080e002>
080e003>It’s just a tiny door, but enough to get scared. 080e003>
080e004>Why do you mock my gloves?080e004>
(Your hair’s gotten longer.)
I was thinking of getting it trimmed,
But I was also thinking of just getting it shaved again,
080e005>(You weren’t happy with it the last time.)
But I thought I was.080e005>
It ended up all right.
Now I look back on it fondly.
The short really does look good on you.
I’m just going to get a trim dude.
So, you know, when you go to the hairstylist
Can you tell them
“Make it the same except shorter?”
080e006>Because it occurred to me that it might be the type of thing
You think makes sense,
But then because they know what actually needs to happen
(One of the weird things, especially with guy’s hair,
Is that you mainly need the back cut
Because your hair shouldn’t actually be the same length.)
080e007>Think I thought about the fact that you liked it
last time I saw it080e007>
in the National Gallery,
all patriotic, exemplifying our heritage
or our purchasing power
owning all the great art after crushing Europe.
They’ve been bad for a couple of years.
The Rams never retooled since they were good,
080e008>so fast and everything was so exciting080e008>
with all their crazy offensive moves
and then a couple of their best players
fell out of their prime,
lost a step, fell apart; so you can’t really get that into them.
But you can always root against the Patriots on the DL.
080e009>You mean, you’re not going to go into a bar
and pronounce your hatred of the Patriots?080e009>
I don’t have any ability to watch sports.
You would never watch it by yourself at the crib?
I couldn’t understand it.
080e010>That’s why being in a bar is great,
people just start explaining it to you
when you have that blank expression.080e010>
Football seems especially confusing.
That’s what it seems like from
the ways girls talk,
understand the least.
But you just sort of have to like it.
It’s not like you’re going to be like
ohh that’s what happens on third down,
now I like it.
080e011>Watched Breakfast at Tiffany’s, but didn’t finish.080e011>
Audrey Hepburn is so graceful and hip. Did something weird happen
in the end? It’s not even like she’s a great actress. Well,
you don’t even think about it. When do you think people stopped
talking like that, with that weird English accent?
080e012>I bet that’s what New Wave movies did.080e012>
But I think well-bred people actually talked like that,
I’m not saying that it was just an invention of the movie.
Maybe the same reason why the 60s seemed so violent,
like my grandmother’s hatred of
the fact that my mom liked Bob Dylan,
a fact that is totally unimaginable today.
What, that she loved Bob Dylan?
No, that my grandmother hated it.
like Grace Kelly in Rear Window, really fuckin’ cool,
goes out with this cool guy, all proper;
okay Roman Holiday, 080e013>she’s a princess, and you know
as soon as you see her gorgeous foot
you say this is a great movie and this a cool chick.080e013>
080e014>I would venture to say that chicks like that are cooler than chicks now
who do whatever they want080e014>
and everyone’s a cool chick,
080e015>but I’m saying that cool chicks will arise,
their spirit is not going to be ruined by these institutions080e015>
how is this possible with restraint and constraints
and that people are relatively interesting
080e016>but people don’t exist for you to be entertained 080e016>
well, yeah, right, so 080e017>why is everyone so interested in being interesting?080e017>
a reactionary argument,
not such an argument for why things weren’t so bad
because people don’t exist for you
but that doesn’t change whether or not they would be interesting
so it’s not an argument against my argument; it’s immaterial what I want
it’s just saying that your argument is not an argument;
the reason that certain institutions aren’t phat for women
doesn’t have to do with whether they
make women more interesting
but that’s what I’m wondering, saying, asking…
because being unique and interesting is so important, and
because conformity is such a threat that people feel
that being interesting is essential to people
and that is one of the reasons why people think
cultural restraints are bad;
080e018>what I’m saying is that the argument
doesn’t go through
because the lack of constraints
doesn’t make people remarkable080e018>
then people will move back to them of their own accord
people don’t stop getting married,
but they do all those things less;
080e019>hard to imagine those institutions
unless there’s something
very different about America.080e019>
…just bought a bunch of stuff to make pasta
at home: oil, garlic, spinach;
080e020>so much cheaper, to stay on top of it,
and my roommate started cooking again;080e020>
it’ll just make it better to live there now,
080e021>because if it’s just two people
who don’t give a shit about anything
and who are content to sit in their rooms all day
it’s not good for the house.080e021>
He lost his car, you know?
And he didn’t get it back and I’m not sure
if that means that he can just say
“Okay, fine, you can have my car”
and then it’s all over,
or if there’s something he needs to do,
and 080e022>I’ve definitely noticed legal notices at home,
but we don’t talk about it much.080e022>
I’m pretty sure getting your car foreclosed on
has to be one of the worst things for your credit.
it’s gotta be worse than the stuff I do.
What do you do?
I don’t pay my credit card bill.
Not even the minimum?
not for like a year
Not even the minimum?
no, I don’t pay anything on it.
And I still have some bills from before I moved.
And then whenever I actually have enough money to pay them
it doesn’t seem worth it.
And then when I want to pay them I realize I don’t have enough money.
You gotta just pay the minimum.
Yeah, but if you don’t have any money
you’re not going to pay the minimum.
What if you only have a couple hundred dollars?
Are you going to pay your bills then?
Well, you can pay the minimum and then still use the credit card.
Ideally you’re right, but now it’s shut off.
080e023>I’ll take care of it later, like when I’m a lawyer.
Once this life thing lets up then I’ll be responsible.080e023>
080e024>mixture of policy, circumstance, and choice
and the phat thing he says is thatpoor people’s bad decisions
are a lot more significant
and their good decisionsare a lot less…080e024>
080e025>I’m lucky because my panic doesn’t concern spirit, but substance:080e025>
Whenever I drink I just want more
080e026>and all my bad panicky memories are filled with alcohol.080e026>
I just kick it straight up American style.
I live way beyond my means, accrue a lot of debt.
080e027>I don’t understand how you know that about yourself.
Because you don’t think it’ll happen again.080e027>
Why did I buy all this stupid shit?
People know all sorts of shit.080e028>
080e029>But then, people do change.080e029>
Maybe that’s only on TV.
080e030>I think some crazy shit happens and people come out of it different.080e030>
080e031>I’m just not sure that you can decide of your own free will to change.
But you could decide to create an intervention.080e031>
and then the rest of it is against your will.
so you have these classical philosophers versus the law
and then you have Christianity versus the law,
but Christianity isn’t just for Jews,
not just a critique of the Jewish law…
the critique becomes universal
080e034>the main question becomes
does Christianity make people feel as if they’re chaffing under any law?080e034>
both of which it’s fighting against;
080e035>isn’t that fucking money in the bank?080e035>
because for us custom means nothing
but for the ancients it meant everything
and it meant that if you broke a custom you were alone,
080e037>feeling tradition differently now080e037>
080e038>and the way ritual has changed
has changed our idea of custom080e038>
080e039>and that if you felt in yourself that you didn’t want to follow a custom you would have to explain that.080e039>
080e040>well, yeah it is, the threat of banishment, the threat of being alone080e040>
080e041>the threat of it is, but not the actual banishment080e041>
080e157>well fine, the threat is the custom, the prospect of reward and punishment080e157>
but customs aren’t totally objectified to us
the prospect of banishment feels different to us than it would of to them
you’re saying you would feel like you were banished if you didn’t follow a custom
no you would be banished if you didn’t follow a custom
080e042>there’s nothing more real than using language080e042> but people have always changed language
080e043>we assume language as fixed080e043>
but don’t expect
that when we use it incorrectly
we’ll be exiled
080e044>we still might be banished for saying the wrong thing:080e044>
080e045>any college professor right now could say that
black people are stupid
and be pretty fucked up 080e045>
or they could say that
women have no place in our philosophy department
and tell me whether or not they would be banished?
080e046>and before that the highest level
was marked by people
who thought that the law wasn’t enough.080e046>
080e047>doesn’t Jesus still think that the law isn’t enough?080e047>
080e048>somebody on the West Wing thinks that the law isn’t enough.080e048>
080e049>that’s the thing, most people are in contradiction with themselves080e049>
080e050>the negative would be that
they think that the law is oppressive in that it
cramps their style080e050>
they think it’s not enough
But this is completely uninteresting psychologically:
080e052>it’s just that we all want the law
to apply to everyone else
but not to us,080e052>
080e053>it’s just a really watered down version of wanting to be a tyrant.080e053>
here’s my gaffle
(you mind if I gaffle you for a little while?):
080e054>Shakespeare is a nihilist, but what kind of nihilist?080e054>
all of Shakespeare’s plays are problem plays
none true comedies
none true tragedies
the comedies are problems
because political rulers
are the means by which everything is resolved
(Theseus in Midsummer Night’s Dream,
the Duke in Measure for Measure)
080e055>because what makes the comedies comedic
is revealed to be within the hand of the poet,
not within the forces driving the characters —080e055>
the marriages, 080e056>the resolutions,
would not take place
without some sort of deus ex machina —080e056>
(the duke doesn’t have to kill himself)
080e057>but it’s just these weird twists of fate
that turn these comedies from tragedies —080e057>
080e058>all of the comedies would be tragedies
if they just played out naturally…080e058>
the second part
of the argument,
080e059>is going to live a tortured marriage080e059>
080e060>play within the play080e060>
080e061>the image of her with another man080e061>
but knows she hasn’t
but thought she did for such a long time
but it was a setup, a play, a fake can be explained
080e062>but he experienced the shock of thinking that she did080e062>
I don’t think that’s right, he knows she hasn’t
080e063>what you see isn’t erased by what you know; the characters cared080e063>
that wasn’t what I was saying
but that’s an extreme version of what you were saying
which maybe it’s not
which maybe it’s not, which is the thing.
080e065>outlined chance event080e065>
because Socrates was real and Plato was real
and then there are,
between the true lawgiver and the moderate tyrant
still has that deep deep lust for power
080e066>but that sort of chance meeting hasn’t occurred…080e066>
080e067>and if man can change
that means he can change from what he was080e067>
then man can change into something that no longer produces greatness
this herd animal
with an instinct for preservation
then there won’t be any more individuals
and we’ll just blink and smile
and say that we have invented happiness
and it will be the reign of the last men
and man will set like the sun…