if what can change then everything can change
I’ve got these great cows in the sky
and lemonade clinking
as an image.
They would move really slowly,
080e080>can’t write a whole poem by recording080e080>
problem is that I’ll generate these little bits
what’s good is that
you don’t just write the next thing,
you turn it off
when you’re not inspired
and then you stop
and the reason why you wouldn’t want to do something about it
is precisely because you want it to have the providential character
you make something and you just have to think that it will turn up;
one thing happens, gathers salt,
“first of all you have to be a great storyteller”
that’s what they say on TV about making movies
the only time characters have had serious intellectual things to say
but they’re not just placeholders is in the 080e082>Brothers Karamazov;080e082>
080e083>maybe it’s that you need the character to be less smart than you080e083>
so Joyce could do it with Stephen Daedelus in Portrait
because Stephen sounds childish;
080e084>people don’t have very many ideas
and so for someone to have a character
who had more than one idea
maybe you just give them your half-assed proposals.080e084>
I can play a whole hipster folk review.
But now I think I’m really good,
When haven’t you thought that?
No, I’m serious. You should hear me.
080e085>That’s what you say every time you think you’re great.080e085>
But now I think I’m actually really good.
080e086>I think it’s really funny that you don’t remember saying that every other time.
Where you’re like, I think I’m actually better than other people.080e086>
No, I’m serious.
I know, but that’s what you say when you’re serious.
I know, but when you realize that you think you must be wrong.
wouldn’t it be phat
to be a founding member of a school of poetry?
but you can’t just have a group of friends like that
just because it sounds cool
you have to be born into it
by your tip
080e088>and those friends have to exist
circumstances have to exist
and your temperament.080e088>
Besides, foundings are
some of the craziest things to go down.
080e089>Always violent if you call them that and never by consent.080e089>
What about the reunification of Germany?
I don’t know if it gets out of the problem,
that’s all I’m saying.
using the small yellow notebook
and then putting the pages into the folder for later typing.
080e090>I need to come up with a new system.080e090>
080e091>I generate a new system every week.080e091>
080e092>But the multiple systems angle, while fun, doesn’t really organize you.080e092>
Yeah, I have at least six types of notebook and notecards and the computer.
For me it comes down to well, if I come up with a cool idea I should just remember it
because I’m not going to go through all the notebooks to find it.
I should at least learn how to keep better notes for class.
080e093>I actually wish that I understood the purpose of notes for class better. 080e093>
080e094>I keep them, especially from my Nietzsche class, because every day
the professor was dropping bombs.080e094>
And you can’t possibly remember them off the top of your head.
080e095>One of his students has notes from his class since the 80s080e095>
and has them all perfect and in binders.
I’m gonna copy them.
He should publish them.
If you can do that and you love teaching, that’s amazing.
You have to be pretty ensconced in the department, not now.
080e096>If you get ensconced you can get pretty weird.080e096>
080e097>If you’re allowed to get weird, you’ll go there, no problem.080e097>